Tuesday, October 25, 2016

A reminder from Mr. Kafka

Source: Goodreads

Like it or not, well-crafted words are sexier than the imagery of 'normal' sexy man #sorrynotsorry. Yes, I always adore people who can play with words, be rich with metaphors and symbols, and heck yeah, show an affinity to read comprehensively.

Few days back, I scrolled through Franz Kafka's quotes on Goodreads and read them all thoroughly. I found the quote but I ignored it. I could not grasp the meaning of what Kafka was trying to say. But a text always comes with context. Now I find the quote is highly related to my recent situation. "You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary." probably means as encouraging the self to remain as it is, to patiently cope with the situation and to keep listening - even to the quietest voice inside the heart.

"The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet." means whatever problems the world will throw at you, beg you to solve it, you have the highest authority to control the situation. You are the owner of your self and you know what is true for you. You know what is best for you.

Life is, again, funny. I will not stop calling it funny. But He has given us the feet that become our standpoint. It will not leave you unless, okay, you cut them like in Saw movie, or you ignore them and follow others instead, figuratively. Life is confusing and worrisome. What we need is indeed a pair of strong feet and tough heart. And an absolute self-care, of course.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Learning To Breathe

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

So this is the way I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way

Hello good morning how you do?


Saya kenal Switchfoot pertama kali dari A Walk To Remember, film drama romantis yang dibintangi Mandy Moore dan Shane West. Walaupun ratingnya parah di Rotten Tomatoes, film ini sukses bikin saya nangis. Novelnya pun juga. Nggak mau terdengar lebay sih, tapi buat saya ceritanya menyentuh. Mungkin karena masih abege ya waktu itu, jadi sukanya film yang drama-drama berujung nangis bombay gini. Haha.

Anyway, saya suka soundtrack film A Walk To Remember karena lagu-lagunya simpel dan enak didengerin. Di album itu, Switchfoot menyumbang 4 lagu yaitu "I Dare You To Move", "Learning To Breathe", "You" dan "Only Hope". Kalo diliat dari judulnya, lagi-lagi emang terkesan emo, menye-menye, cinta-cintaan... you know. Tapi beda sama "Learning To Breathe" yang saya kutipkan audio dan liriknya ini.

I won't talk much tentang hubungan lagu ini ke saya, but I always pay attention to song lyrics. Bagi saya, menikmati musik itu nggak cuma dari melodinya tapi juga dari lirik, siapa yang bawain, background sampai memori yang melekat ketika lagu itu diputar.

Learning To Breathe telah membawa pikiran saya ke dua masa. Masa dulu dan masa sekarang. Waktu ketika saya masih kelas 2 SMP dan ketika saya telah berusia seperempat abad. Time is indeed funny. Karena waktu, semua berjalan seperti roda. Kadang kita lupa bahwa hidup ini memang sementara. Ada saat kita muda, ada saat kita tua. Ada saat kita bahagia, ada saat kita sedih. Ada saat kita jatuh, ada saat kita bangun. 

Learning To Breathe menurut saya adalah sebuah pengingat bahwa "pain is inevitable and suffering is optional" seperti kata novelis Haruki Murakami. Sakit itu tidak bisa ditolak dan (menjadi) menderita itu sebenarnya pilihan. Mau menderita yang bagaimana pun itu sebenarnya ada pada kendali kita. Dan Learning To Breathe mengingatkan saya bahwa ada kekuatan diatas kendali itu. Well, again, I'm not going to move any further from this statement. I'm setting it free from any interpretation.

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Hauntingly beautiful

(When we leave this room it's gone)
Is the company stalling?
We had what we wanted: your eyes
(When we leave this room it's gone)
With no word from the former
I'd be happy as hell, if you stayed for tea
(I know so well that this is all there is)
This is how we grow now, woman
A child ignored
These will just be places to me now
The foreman is down
(When we leave this room it's gone)
We're rising the stairs

I find God and religions too...

Staying at the Ace Hotel
If the calm would allow
Then I would just be floating to you now
It would make me pass to let it pass on
I'm climbing the dash, that skin

(Here in this room, this narrow room where life began when we were young last night)

Well we walked up on that bolt in the street
After you tied me in in the driveway of the apartment of his bede
Sent your sister home in a cab
Said I woulda walked across any thousand lands
(No not really if you can't)
I didn't need you that night
Not gonna need you anytime
Was gonna take it as it goes
I could go forward in the light
Well I better fold my clothes

(I’ll be looking through your eyes)
All my goodness
(I’ll be looking through your eyes)
(I’ll be looking through your eyes)
All my goodness to show
(Why are you so far from saving me?)
(Why are you so far from saving me?)